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Friday, August 4, 2017

BROKEN SEALS




On this particular day, my Honey and I were driving to the next town over to attend his Aunt Louise’s funeral.  A wonderful woman I only met a few times in past 27 years.  During the drive we decided to listen to a CD I had recently ordered from Amazon which was Dan Seals Greatest Hits. Back in the late 80’s, Dan spoke to me through his music, helped me through heartache, and made me feel he understood.  Since this time of my life was before I’d met my Honey, I asked him if he knew Dan Seal’s music, he said he was not sure. 

While listening and singing to the CD my mind drifted back to that time in my life and the feelings and emotions of 1989 came rushing back. It was a very difficult time in my life, however, Dan was there for me.  Deciding it would be a great idea to see if Dan was coming to a smaller concert venue near us, I began pushing buttons on my phone to look up Dan Seal’s tour schedule.  My belly got butterflies and I became very excited at the thought of seeing my Hero in person. Instead, an article came up saying Dan Seals died in 2008. 

Instantly I was crushed beyond belief, I burst into tears and kept repeating that I didn’t know, while continuing to sob.  With Dan singing in the background my mournful wails continued all the way to  Aunt Louise’s funeral at the church. 

Trying to pull myself together I wiped my tears and tried really hard to hold my emotions in check.  But I couldn’t. DAN SEALS IS DEAD. We entered the family room with Aunt Louise in her casket, family everywhere I looked, and me in the back row crying my eyes out.

My Honey’s sister, Katie, asked him if I was alright.  He mumbled something about me being emotional and crying over Aunt Louise.  Yes, Aunt Louise was a dear sweet lady, however, I sat at her funeral and cried like a baby for my hero, Dan Seals.  Gone forever.

There is no doubt in my mind his family thought it very odd that I was crying this hard at Aunt Louise’s funeral.  They kept shooting me sideways glances with a funny look on their face.  I didn’t care. This may not have been Dan Seals funeral, but, I was mourning for him anyway under the guise of Aunt Louise. I would love to believe Dan was there, as well, because this was my final goodbye to him. 


I am sure Aunt Louise will forgive me. 

4 comments:

  1. I love your depth of honesty, and look forward to following your blog!I cried my eyes out at my husbands cousins funeral...I had only met him once. I know about the sideways glances. I was crying because it made me sad that no one else was...

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  2. That is a very touching story and goes to show just what an effect talented people and indeed music in general can have on us ,it moves us all to some extent ,There are actually 3 songs that can bring me to tears if I am not very strict with myself ,2 of them I will not mention as they are a bit embarrassing (maybe later ..lol) and one is called HONEY by Bobby Goldsborough, I always feel a sense of loss when some one creative passes away as it takes away from the beauty of the world but certain songs can reduce me to a sobbing heap and no one will ever guess what they are. This story also goes to show what a gentle creative spirit you have which is very nice to learn ..

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  3. Wow... and here it is 2018 and I didn't know Dan Seals was dead! Though it's a sad story I couldn't help but laugh! You are so precious!

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